*WARNING: This post is not for the sexually timid, prude, or close-minded. Read with caution.
I see your eyes piercing through me with that intimidating stare. My knees buckle. I’m trying to resist. I’m trying to hold back. But it’s hard to control my animalistic nature. “Touch me,” I want to whisper.
I reach for you in my sleep. Not the kind of reach that I’m searching for you, but the kind where I want to pull you closer. The kind of reach where I grab at my sheets and bite my lower lip; my toes curl, back arches, heart pounds, body quivers. Dripping…
I want your body on mine; the taste of your sweat on my tongue, your nails down my back, and your hands gripping my hips. Bite marks and bruises. Breathlessly I say your name.
It might sound like lust, it feels like it too. But my mind wonders to places beyond your bedroom. Like your kitchen, cooking breakfast in the morning. Or your sofa, watching TV and talking about our day. Your arms wrapped around me, holding tightly. Your heart; I want to be “your girl”.
Only time can tell what your heart decides; stay and bare the pain. Or start over, and have a chance at happiness and peace. Only time can heal your wounds, but I’d love to help you bandage them. It’s not about forgiveness; it’s about moving on.
Control can only go so far when I know you deserve better. When I know how badly you’re hurting and I want to comfort you. When I know how she failed you.
But for now, I wait patiently. Hoping you see the good person I am, and the respect I have for you. And I hope one day, I can give you all of me; my heart, body, and soul.
Nice inner monologue presenting the obsession and heart-break that follows when wanting someone so badly. There are some good lines in here, very sexually potent which I thought worked well with the overall piece.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I don't really think the disclaimer and title are necessary. The only two characters and you and the boy, and you are both mature readers, and you seem to be writing to a mature audience from your word-choice and tone, so the "Not for Younger Views" claim seems extraneous. I could see a better title here.
I like how you start off with lustful images and quickly transfer the images to those of wanting more beyond the bedroom. Very introspective and emotional.
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